Anxiety is the worst thing in the entire world... It makes you feel sick tired and not wanna do anything in your life . Ok well I'm not that bad but I have anxiety and I hate saying it because it's embarrassing to me. I have always been a fun outgoing girl who's down for anything and will do anything and I don't care! Iv had anxiety since I was 12 and I have over came it for over 6 years now and of course it had to creep back into my life two weeks before this Haiti trip !!! I don't wish this on anyone !
I havn't really had anything to eat in two weeks just snacks here and there and a few meals and it's been horrible because I love food. Anxiety makes you have no appetite and makes you worry 24/7 . It's the worst but oh well because I'm on the path to getting anxiety back out of my life and start living my life with no fear again and being all smiles !
Sooo the result to this story is that I am not going to Haiti anymore work my husband ... And honestly I am heart broken and feel like a lame ass ! But I think it's best for my self to stay here and get my self better while my husband goes and serves the Haiti people .
Your probably still wondering why I'm not going and just get over it and just go you idiot!! Well I figured since you have to be very careful on what you eat knowing me I probably won't wanna touch anything so that would mean me not eating for another week and I don't know if my body can handle another week without food and nutrition.. Haiti is a beautiful place I hear but it's also very hot and I havn't gotten much sleep in these few weeks so that's another reason why I think it would be best for me to stay home because it's always hot in Haiti and my husband always tells me he can't sleep cause it's so hot and there's usually no air conditioning ! Uhh kill me !
So for the next following week I'm going to stay home and get myself better . Prayers would be nice if anyone would like I usually don't like asking for herlp but I think now is necessary . Thank you friends ! ❤️❤️
I'm glad you made the decision to stay back and take care of yourself!!! Unfortunately anxiety is something that is no joke. I too wouldn't wish it on anyone. I think you chose the harder decision to stay back and get better. If you had a horrible panic attack over there you and Cody would be no help! Cause as much as he loves helping those in need of fresh water, you can tell he loves you more!! So I hope you feel better real soon and you can chow down on a big old meal!!! I never comment on anything so I'm sorry if I sound like a weirdo... But here's to kicking anxieties butt!!!!
ReplyDeleteHi there....I came across your blog through another blog that I read. I had to reach out to you because I recently developed anxiety and am having a hard time overcoming it. I would love to talk to you and see how you overcame it :) I know how horrible it can be and I am trying everything to get better but I'm not making much progress. Thanks so much!!
ReplyDeleteHi I saw your Instagram post on these natural oils that help ease anxiety and I was wondering where I could purchase them? I really hate taking pills and this would be a great solution! Thank you and I hope you get better (:
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