Melted

I havnt been here in a while so hello blogger friends . I am super personal on my blog because it's kind of an escape for me, a place where I can just type my guts out of EVERYTHING I'm feeing even if it doesn't make sense or If I have super sucky writing skills but I don't care. The latest on Cody and I has been a little crazy more crazy then normal, but what's new our life is always crazy! Cody and I were called by Codys aunt and asked us if we would adopt a baby! I feel like this is kinda like woah for most of you guys thinking oh my hell what are you guys doin !? I know I know well here's the story so it was offered to us as just as an idea you guys just think about it and when Cody got off the phone with his aunt me and him just started bawling for some reason like uncontrollably ! The funny thing is is that we made a vision bored a few days before this happened to us and a picture we put on the vision bored was a baby ! Crazy right !? Oh and those of you that don't know what a vision bored is , it's a bored where you print out or cut out pics from a magazine of things or you want to achieve or get in your life and you look at them on the board every day in hopes for them to come true . It's like a positive thinking thing and it usually works it's amazing ! Anyways  back to us sobbing we looked at each other getting ourselves together thinking how crazy it was but how right it felt to us to move forward with the adoption. The next day we were calling people and getting everything we needed to get done for this adoption because we were adopting a baby in 15 days !! It's crazy over the short period of time we were going through this I was so unbelievebly stressed out but so in love with Cody it was weird I was crying one moment cause I was scared and then I was squsihing the crap out of Cody cause I was so excited about this baby! The next hard part about all this is that the mother lived in Gutamala and we had to fly her out here and she was only going to stay here for 15 days and then go back to her country after leaving her baby boy with us ! She applied for her visa at the worst time in the word because it was right around Easter time and Easter is taken very seriously down in Guatemala they close down every single thing there except hospitals so not getting ahold of them for four days was the scariest thing because they don't have Internet service in thre home and we had to email the whole time and when everything is closed down there's no emailsa ... So we were so stressed over those four days getting closer and closer to her due date April 16 and we were in a crunch getting her down here and hoping she didn't have her baby yet , ugh it was a mess . Monday after Easter they went to the US embassy which is a mess to get through down there and so hard to get into and make appointments, but the mother of this girl was telling us it was easier then we thought getting the visa because I guess people from Gutemala come here to Utah a lot. We waited all Monday for an email wondering where they where, what has happened, had anything changed , did they change there minds??? Meanwhile we had a quick business trip to Tony Hawks house the whole day we were waiting for this email or phone call or what we didn't know and so we went to bed that night scared and hoping to get an email in the morning. Tuesday morning we get an email telling us they went to the U.S. embassy and they said it would take 3 months for the visa to process and they were so sorry all the trouble they put us through but it would be impossible obviously at that point . I wish we could have just gone down there and still picked the baby up but they shut the adoption agency down there so we legally couldn't even take him out of the country. He was born today and he's absolutely beautiful! I few like I love him ...? Is that weird I was preparing myself to be his mom and I already loved him so much ! His mom dropped out of highschool and is now taking care of the baby I think this family will always have a piece in my heart .