feeling a little strange

As of about a week ago I have now been married for 8 months. Time fly's when your having fun I guess. So heres what iv been feeling weird about and I know its totally normal and if you guys that are married think its not normal I know your lying to yourselves. I have felt a little sad and a little strange of late...  I miss my friends but then I don't miss them at all. I'm only 19 and I'm married. somedays I feel like no one understands me. I have a big handful of friends half of them are married half of them are single. I love my married friends but sometimes I feel like Im acting way to old for my age talking about our friends kids future, our future, whats to come in life. Then my friends that aren't married are out having the time of their lives partying , shopping doing what 19 year olds do.

This has been such a fun transition being married but also very hard for a girl like me. Im wild. I like staying out to the wee hours and sleeping in all day and shopping my guts out without having anyone tell me "we have to save our money for blah blah blah " but then again I like staying home a lot of the times getting in my pjs early and sitting and watching Netflix!  I also like staying home and painting my nails and just being home!! agh I can't believe I just said that I'm already an old fart and I'm not even 20 yet till July! HA I make myself laugh thats the good thing about me is I can always make myself laugh I think I'm funny. Its a good thing if you can make yourself  laugh right? I don't know what I'm saying this blog isn't just for all of you its kind of just like my journal for all my crazy thoughts and mind vomit. If you don't care read my blog if you do care don't read my blog.

Thanks bye
Sincerely,
my crazy little mind