Love Story Prt. 1

Cody was like no other name Cody that iv ever heard before, this one was different maybe it was the way people said it in the tones of their voices but it sounded beautiful to me I wanted to be around him more to hear that name, Cody. I was instantly hypnotized when I heard his voice for the first time on the phone, when he said "Hey this is Cody. " My heart nearly jumped out of my chest even he said his own name beautifully! I was entranced by the way he talked I was entranced by the way he walked I wanted to know every single thing about him. My life couldn't be better I fell in love at first sight. Its true it can happen. I couldn't imagine only seeing him for one night. I knew I had to see him again. I felt like he was some kind of drug his energy just made me feel some indescribable way but I wanted to take that drug more and more so I could get the same high off of him again. 

I loved being around him. I loved his smell, even when he didn't smell that great he smelt good to me. Iv heard that people become attracted to people because of the smell of the hormone thats releasing from there body and thats how people attract and I knew thats exactly what it was cause I was hooked. I remember our puppy love stage where we would talk from 5 at night till 3 in the morning just staring into each others eyes wanting to hear more of each others voices and how they would get raspy at night and how our eyes would get sleepy and start to get more and more heavy as we looked at each other smiling trying to stay awake so we didn't have to say goodbye. 

It was a very short time before the I love you words came out. We both new this wasn't going to be just a short relationship we wanted it to be forever like in the story books. Then I was even more hooked. I couldn't of thought of one other person I wanted to be with more but him. He was so enticing now especially because the L word was leaked, I knew he felt the same as I did for him. 

I like to describe our story kind of like " The Notebook" in someways just how in love we were and how he was so gentle with me and made me feel like the prettiest, smartest, funnest person to be around and no one else could top me. Every girl wants to feel like that. As our relationship went on we got more and more comfortable with each other we started to fight a little and sometimes leave in tears and our nights weren't becoming as long . Then we would go back into our love stage like nothing ever happened. We never broke up though, but we did hit a few bumps in the road.

First date 

feeling a little strange

As of about a week ago I have now been married for 8 months. Time fly's when your having fun I guess. So heres what iv been feeling weird about and I know its totally normal and if you guys that are married think its not normal I know your lying to yourselves. I have felt a little sad and a little strange of late...  I miss my friends but then I don't miss them at all. I'm only 19 and I'm married. somedays I feel like no one understands me. I have a big handful of friends half of them are married half of them are single. I love my married friends but sometimes I feel like Im acting way to old for my age talking about our friends kids future, our future, whats to come in life. Then my friends that aren't married are out having the time of their lives partying , shopping doing what 19 year olds do.

This has been such a fun transition being married but also very hard for a girl like me. Im wild. I like staying out to the wee hours and sleeping in all day and shopping my guts out without having anyone tell me "we have to save our money for blah blah blah " but then again I like staying home a lot of the times getting in my pjs early and sitting and watching Netflix!  I also like staying home and painting my nails and just being home!! agh I can't believe I just said that I'm already an old fart and I'm not even 20 yet till July! HA I make myself laugh thats the good thing about me is I can always make myself laugh I think I'm funny. Its a good thing if you can make yourself  laugh right? I don't know what I'm saying this blog isn't just for all of you its kind of just like my journal for all my crazy thoughts and mind vomit. If you don't care read my blog if you do care don't read my blog.

Thanks bye
Sincerely,
my crazy little mind