Anxiety is the worst thing in the entire world... It makes you feel sick tired and not wanna do anything in your life . Ok well I'm not that bad but I have anxiety and I hate saying it because it's embarrassing to me. I have always been a fun outgoing girl who's down for anything and will do anything and I don't care! Iv had anxiety since I was 12 and I have over came it for over 6 years now and of course it had to creep back into my life two weeks before this Haiti trip !!! I don't wish this on anyone !
I havn't really had anything to eat in two weeks just snacks here and there and a few meals and it's been horrible because I love food. Anxiety makes you have no appetite and makes you worry 24/7 . It's the worst but oh well because I'm on the path to getting anxiety back out of my life and start living my life with no fear again and being all smiles !
Sooo the result to this story is that I am not going to Haiti anymore work my husband ... And honestly I am heart broken and feel like a lame ass ! But I think it's best for my self to stay here and get my self better while my husband goes and serves the Haiti people .
Your probably still wondering why I'm not going and just get over it and just go you idiot!! Well I figured since you have to be very careful on what you eat knowing me I probably won't wanna touch anything so that would mean me not eating for another week and I don't know if my body can handle another week without food and nutrition.. Haiti is a beautiful place I hear but it's also very hot and I havn't gotten much sleep in these few weeks so that's another reason why I think it would be best for me to stay home because it's always hot in Haiti and my husband always tells me he can't sleep cause it's so hot and there's usually no air conditioning ! Uhh kill me !
So for the next following week I'm going to stay home and get myself better . Prayers would be nice if anyone would like I usually don't like asking for herlp but I think now is necessary . Thank you friends ! ❤️❤️
